SCC Outer Ear

I have to say, I’m a bit scared. I would like some opinions on my situation, as my anxiety is very high and I’m experiencing tremendous sadness.

Last spring / summer (2021) I noticed a fatty growth behind my left ear. It had a hard bump on the end of it and I am ashamed to say I picked at it a bit. Nevertheless, it was late September until I got to see a dermatologist.

The dermatologist performed the biopsy and it was determined to be ATYPICAL SQUAMOUS PROLIFERATION. My Dr told me that it was not cancer but we would need to do a follow up in 6 months, or March 2022.

Almost immediately the growth returned after biopsy. It looked a bit different this time, smaller and representing what looked like a wart at first. Unfortunately, I did not immediately go back to the dermatologist but waited to make an appointment until February 2022.

During this time it bled a little but I think that’s from my playing with it. I finally got into the dermatologist this week (March 7). The Dr took one look at it and said it’s more than likely Squamous Cell Carcinoma. She ruled out a wart quickly. She took another biopsy and I am currently awaiting the results. However, it seems very likely I have cancer of the outer ear. In fact, I’m 99% positive based off the Dr.

It sounds like I did not catch this in time. I noticed abnormal bumps on my neck as of late that I believe you can see in the picture.

I’m worried this has spread because the more I read it seems it can quite easily when located on the ear.

I’m also worried of disfigurement from surgery that I will most likely have after the results.

I’m not looking for a diagnoses here but maybe someone can look at the pictures and give me their interpretation.

What can I expect if it has spread? Should I be this worried?